I really learned a lot...

It's been a year of emotions, frustration, disappointment, anger, disillusion and fear about something I was never in control to begin with which was someone else's feelings but the truth is that I learn a lot. I am not ready to go through that once more, the past stays in the past and even the good memories don't bring my life forward. So I've finally let go... 'cause I learn a lot when you vanished "out my door".

Hey baby! It's all gravy
We all do what we got to do
Hey darling! I’m broken hearted
I’ve been crying but my crying is through

And I learned a lot
I've really learned a lot
Broken down on my bedroom/bathroom floor
Yes I've learned a lot
I've Really learned a lot
I hope you find what you were looking for

Spent a lot of time staring at the ceiling
Spent a lot of time talking to walls
Spent a lot of time chasing on that old-time feeling
Spent a lot of time waiting for your call

Oh and darling! The sun has been fallin’
Like the dust on some Midwestern plane
Oh and darling! Instead of running
I think it might be time
you sit down
and deal with the pain

Late at night I sit and listen to the freeway
Rolling like a river on a distant shore
Nobody told me that living was easy
I ain’t living in fear anymore

Amos Lee

 

How do you make love outlast passion??

Little did I knew that 2010 was going to be a quite emotional year for me but the truth is that it was.

Without even being aware of it i fell in love, yep the bug did bite me but i don't know if fortunately or not i received a reality check-up from Mr. valentine "himself".

It started in the end of the summer and it didn't survived the cold winter but it was full of happy laughs and memories so no hard feelings!!

We were only having a good time and as far I'm concerned it evolved to something else, something in the scale of passion i would say but life happened and probably it just got a little bit complicated.

So soon after my b-day in November and the beginning of Christmas time we went our separate ways.

What really happened i don't know. But how does one make a passion stronger and become something more like love?? Looking forward to find that answer but until then I'll keep my eyes open...

Just another Valentine's Day...

Not only the fact that I was working on that day made me not aprecciate it as much as the next mortal as the fact of not having someone to share this moment with gave that feeling of it's just another Valentine's Day...

Ok, so at work I've seen a lot of couples some more in love than others but that's how it's suppose to be, there's no measures for love. I did enjoy when I would came up to them, great them and offer complimentary drinks that they really smiled back at me, giving me the reassurance that I could have that some day. Hey, who knows what may happen on the next Valentine's day??

A letter to "Dr.Valentine"...

Dear Dr.Valentine,

Another year has passed and I'am still single so what's up with that?
You said if I made some changes there would lots of fun, sexy, open minded and interesting guys around and all I had to do was chose but I'm not felling the love... which kinda makes me feel not so happy today. So please take a hold on the situation and "fix me" someone... you still have an entire year to do. I'm just wondering... are there any candidates?

Sign,

Tanaka's Super Romantic Ego