Back to the Future...returning slowly from the past

 Hello! Ola! 

Long time no see, no news and especially no updated posts.

Hope all is well with you as you are reading this update after a few years. Let's just say I am returning slowly but surely as I gain new satisfaction in writing after tweeting more precisely. I have many things to share, experiences through the covid pandemic like many of you have I am sure. 

So will do a previously in This is My So-Called Life review from where I stopped in 2019 with some key situations.

Photo by Markus Winkler on Unsplash

Nao corras ou tenhas pressa
Num instante a vida acaba
O mundo para e tu não
Vais poder terminar
O teu pensamento, a tua palavra
O teu momento, os teus sonhos
Nao corras contra o tempo
Mas usa a teu favor
Da mais tempo ao que tempo
Para as coisas aconteçam em teu favor
Aproveita,saboreia e mostra o teu valor


Be wise. Be gentil. Be you. God bless.

Life best Quotes...

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.
Henry David Thoreau

Be wise. Be blessed. Be Free.

I really learned a lot...

It's been a year of emotions, frustration, disappointment, anger, disillusion and fear about something I was never in control to begin with which was someone else's feelings but the truth is that I learn a lot. I am not ready to go through that once more, the past stays in the past and even the good memories don't bring my life forward. So I've finally let go... 'cause I learn a lot when you vanished "out my door".

Hey baby! It's all gravy
We all do what we got to do
Hey darling! I’m broken hearted
I’ve been crying but my crying is through

And I learned a lot
I've really learned a lot
Broken down on my bedroom/bathroom floor
Yes I've learned a lot
I've Really learned a lot
I hope you find what you were looking for

Spent a lot of time staring at the ceiling
Spent a lot of time talking to walls
Spent a lot of time chasing on that old-time feeling
Spent a lot of time waiting for your call

Oh and darling! The sun has been fallin’
Like the dust on some Midwestern plane
Oh and darling! Instead of running
I think it might be time
you sit down
and deal with the pain

Late at night I sit and listen to the freeway
Rolling like a river on a distant shore
Nobody told me that living was easy
I ain’t living in fear anymore

Amos Lee

 

Aqui...

Aqui
Eu nunca disse que iria ser
A pessoa certa pra você
Mas sou eu quem te adora
Se fico um tempo sem te procurar
É pra saudade nos aproximar
E eu já não vejo a hora
Eu não consigo esconder
Certo ou errado, eu quero ter você
Ei, você sabe que eu não sei jogar
Não é meu dom representar
Não dá pra disfarçar
Eu tento aparentar frieza mas não dá
É como uma represa pronta pra jorrar
Querendo iluminar
A estrada, a casa, o quarto onde você está
Não da pra ocultar
Algo preso quer sair do meu olhar
Atravessar montanhas e te alcançar
Tocar o seu olhar
Te fazer enxergar e se enxergar em mim
Aqui
Agora que você parece não ligar
Que já não pensa e já não quer pensar
Dizendo que não sente nada
Estou lembrando menos de você
Falta pouco pra me convencer
Que sou a pessoa errada
Eu não consigo esconder...


Ana Carolina
Photo: Myself

Vício De Ti

Just another Valentine's Day...

Not only the fact that I was working on that day made me not aprecciate it as much as the next mortal as the fact of not having someone to share this moment with gave that feeling of it's just another Valentine's Day...

Ok, so at work I've seen a lot of couples some more in love than others but that's how it's suppose to be, there's no measures for love. I did enjoy when I would came up to them, great them and offer complimentary drinks that they really smiled back at me, giving me the reassurance that I could have that some day. Hey, who knows what may happen on the next Valentine's day??

A year around the rain city...

It has been a litle more than a year since I last wrote in my blog. A year building up friendships, living love desilusions,travelling back home, working hard, studying, making new plans and getting a year older and hopefully wiser. So stay tunned 'cause this what you miss in...My so called life!

A quarter of century... no big deal

The big 25th...

A new day at midnight it's going to turn me a little bit more older but not exactly more wiser because I still like the same things I liked a few minutes ago. I still jump to the sound of the music I used to ear and I still appreciate a moment of silence with those I love as much as those moments of laughs and giggles that we can share on embarrassing moments. Well that's just who I am... but I’m really turning another page now where I set some goals to myself and hope to obtain them not as fast as I can but the best that I can.
It was a big dilemma for me the 25th anniversary but then again I was happy to be the last one of my group of friends to get there, which will always make me the young kid on the block. LOL

The first one to give me the happy birthday was Phil, one of my best friends, my doctor, my shrink, my very soul mate in a very special way and all the way from London my friends from work everyone one remebered my birthday even those i never got the message from.

It was a week to remember with friends and family around me, i got to see almost every one i wanted this time. I made one special wish when i flew there, which was to celebrate every day like it was my birthday, I was determine to make all days feel like the good nights a had before in that same spot. So let me tell you it was all worth it. A big thank you to all of you, arigato gozaimasu.

Happy Birthday, Cat.

Don't want my money back I just enjoyed the show

O meu primeiro concerto em Londres, intimista como é eu queria que fosse, um grande espectaculo com LENKA. Para começar este era um dos concertos que eu mais esperava ver, não só por ser o primeiro da Lenka aqui em Inglaterra mas também porque como sou uma fã de Grey's Anathomy de onde ouvir falar pela primeira vez desta cantora tinha que assistir este concerto. A primeira parte ficou a cargo de uma banda chamada Litle Lost David, um grupo inglês também muito bom com sonoridades fantásticas entre o rock e o blues e baladas próprias de uma série televisiva. Depois eis que surge Lenka com Trouble is a friend mas para mim momentos altos foram as canções Skipalong, Dangerous and Sweet, We will not grow old, Like a Song, Live like your dying, enfim todo o concerto e estar em frente ao palco ajudou a vibrar em cada momento, em cada canção e acompanhar cada letra das suas músicas.

Reencontro...

Há algo em mim que não
me deixa descansar
não é o trabalho,
não é a mudança
mas são as lembranças,
os sentidos que as coisas
tomam sem darmos conta
que elas estão a mudar
é todo um sentimento
que carrego cada vez
que escuto a vossa voz
e só consigo sorrir
é todo um momento
que eu espero alcançar
e não é possível
para de planear esse momento
do nosso primeiro Reencontro!

A letter to "Dr.Valentine"...

Dear Dr.Valentine,

Another year has passed and I'am still single so what's up with that?
You said if I made some changes there would lots of fun, sexy, open minded and interesting guys around and all I had to do was chose but I'm not felling the love... which kinda makes me feel not so happy today. So please take a hold on the situation and "fix me" someone... you still have an entire year to do. I'm just wondering... are there any candidates?

Sign,

Tanaka's Super Romantic Ego